I’m not completely sure of everything that I believe in.
For example, I can’t say how I feel about ghosts, spirits and their ability to communicate across planes, the form they take or whether they exist at all. I don’t know what I feel about spirits although I’ve weegee’d a fair bit and seemingly contacted various ‘spirits’. I don’t know how I feel about sentient spirits interacting with living people in that I accept something is happening but it’s probably something to do with our subconscious minds. I find it hard to accept that there is a true ability to interact across planes of existence (if there are other planes of existence). I have several friends who I would explain away as extremely empathetic , but who consider themselves to be Mediums or Spiritual Healer. I suspect a lot of healing comes from the belief in being healed. I accept there are a lot of unanswered questions and I do think there is more out there and more capacity within our brains than we yet understand or tap.
I do believe that we have subconscious and conscious skills beyond those that most of us use. I also believe that way back before we became ‘civilised’ we were more able to tap into our instincts, communicate more intuitively and work alongside nature/seasons/elements. I do believe that our energy lives on. Science proves that energy is neither created or destroyed. When we die our physical bodies decay and feed the earth, growing plants, feeding animals, continuing the circle of life. Weather there is a ‘soul’ that exists separately? Whether this ‘soul’ contains consciousness and awareness of life as we know it? Those are matters on which I remain open to further evidence and scientific study. I am definitely a sceptic.
I am however, completely sure of what I don’t believe.
I do not believe and feel it factual to say that there is no all-seeing divine, super being(s) controlling/orchestrating who is good/bad; who is healed/left to suffer; who is constantly watching/ignoring; who is determining our individual fates here/in any alternative life. Religion is a man-made conscript which has evolved and changed through the millenia to suit those who dictate it and is dependant on where you were born and with what fables you were raised as to which story/ supreme being each individual worships.
I do however, have great faith in the inherent goodness of (wo)mankind and its abilities to make a difference by offering positive thoughts/kindness/actions to others. I do believe that a charitable and positive outlook makes you a happier more enriched person. I do believe that actions speak louder than words. That giving is receiving. That laughter and friendship are the best medicine. That love conquers all.
I am, at heart, a Humanist. I find strength and solace in my friends and acquaintances. I gain and grow from exploring new paths, listening to others and sharing kindness. I try to stand up against wrongs; be loud for those who feel they do not have a voice; offer support to those who do not have the strength. In return I try to accept the love and help of those around me , who feel the same essence of humanity and want to give of themselves as I want to give of myself.
This week I have been struggling. I have felt pain and weakness and fatigue. Friends have offered support each in their own way. Sympathy, spiritually, practically. I’ve had massage, pampering, kind words, visits and positive energy sent to me from all directions. Its interesting, because those with a religion will say they will pray for you. Perhaps this is the same as me or other friends , offering positive thoughts. Although we are offering humanity and nature up as a healing source; and those of religion are requesting that their supreme being consider looking out for you. In both instances the intention is the same.. it is a human wilfulness to care for your best interests and well-being.
The world around us; plants, animals, seasons, skies, and all of nature are suppressed by the unnatural infrastructure we have created. Nature will eventually win out. We cannot tame it . We might adjust it for a time. But when we leave, either voluntarily or through our own demise. Nature will take over again. The evidence of our footprint on the earth would soon be buried deep in the earth and nature will , if necessary continue without us. We can forge our own battles against it for our short-term convenience and gain and nature will let us; for a while. But, when we push too far, get too greedy with the resources of this planet, nature will fight back and win. And it might well do it without us being part of the natural future.
We think we are supreme, intelligent and resourceful because we build, invent, communicate and utilise the resources of this planet. Because we are now reaching beyond our world and in time will do the same on distant planets. But there are limited resources, limited tolerances that this planet and atmosphere will allow us to control. There has to be balance. Greed and corporations are not balance. They are egos. Egos will eventually lose to nature., be they a whole race, an economic construct, or a political ideal. These artificial controls of resources for greed, control and financial gain will eventually fall; but at what price to humankind?
Interestingly, and surprisingly as I’ve sat here ‘mind dumping into written word’ the words spilling into this blog are not those I had expected. I was meaning to extrapolate into alternative healing and goodwill and have turned instead to ecology and economic politics! Fortunately, for me at least, that is the joy of just leaving your fingers to ride the keyboard and spill the mind onto the page. I never quite know where it will lead … sometimes, quite often actually, I’m not even aware that the thoughts that appear were even in my head. Oh the joy of letting your mind do the talking!
Anyway, today I am being extremely kind to myself. I am being mindful. I am listening to my joints and muscles, I am giving them permission to rest and heal. I am reading, writing, sitting, resting. I am allowing my friends to advise me and guide me. I am letting my husband allow me the freedom to stop. I am relaxing, recovering and regaling my thoughts to you all.
Try it. Let your mind wander through your fingers from a starting point of your choosing and see where it takes you. You may discover something new about yourself . Or try mine about ‘belief’.
I would love to hear from you xxxx